When I am off track and out of control, I feel like I am going to crash. I am afraid of what might happen. I know what will happen. People won't like me. I might lose privileges. People won't respect me. I could get fired. I could get arrested and go to jail. I could get hurt. I could even get killed. I'm on the right track now, But I could lose it at any time. Then, the thing that I need to do most Is the one thing that I have a really hard time doing. When I feel like I am going to lose it, What I need to do is Ask For Help! When my brain is not working right, I need to let someone I trust Help me To stay safe and get calm again. When my brain is not working right, I feel like I am on a FASD Train Going downhill, And the engineer is asleep And I can't wake him up, And I can't put on the brakes. I watch myself go faster and faster, And I can't stop. In my head, I want to yell for Help! But the words that come out are full of Anger and Frustration and Disrespect. Bad, bad words. When I slow down and finally stop, I am okay again. Then my mom and I have a "talk." My mom is always there to help me. But who is going to be there for me When she is gone? Help!