IN MEMORY OF FAS STAR IVAN



Drawing of how Ivan would look, along with
his twin sistern, Alyona, almost 14

Ivan's Story


Ivan (pronounced Ee-van) lived a very short life. He was the fraternal twin brother to Alyona. Their birth mother was an alcoholic and drank during pregnancy.

He was born very, very small, and very sick. I do not even know how young he was when he died. It could have been in a hospital, or at home. There is no record of his existence...only memories in the brain of an FAS teen. Alyona and Ivan were reportedly born at home. The two of them at some point apparantly spent a little time in the hospital for some reason, because Alyona talks about a favorite photo of the two of them next to each other in a clear hospital crib. But any records that DID exist, are gone. They perished in a fire. Documents, pictures, everything. There isn't even a grave that I know of. All we have now are her memories, and a picture I drew to show how he might look like if he had lived.

Alyona often dreams about and "talks to" Ivan. She continues to grieve at his loss, even though they were only infants when he died. She has incredible "womb" memories...how Ivan was always kicking her while they were in their birth mother's belly. I consider Ivan my adopted son, just as I consider Alyona my adopted daughter. Because if he HAD lived, he, too, would be with us in this loving home. But I know he is in a much better place, taken care of by a Father who is so much better than any earthly parent.

Click here to read about Ivan's twin sister, Alyona



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